Wind and Snow Paralyze the Northeast.

I tuck my flip-flopped feet underneath me and minimize the news.

It doesn’t feel right that it’s so mild out today, that the sky is once again bottomless blue. The brownness of the grass doesn’t feel right, either – back in my hometown, there are already tiny flowers beneath the snow.

When will it rain again?

Everything feels like it’s waiting and it’s tired of that wait.

Right I’m sitting in the Panera where I first apartment-hunted two years ago. I’m sitting in the exact same table, in fact, looking out at weather much nicer than before. I can just make out the roofs of the apartment complex I would end up living in before I found my beautiful house… the house that I have now had the pleasure of living in just shy of a year.

Last year at this time, my mind was on fire with excitement and impatience to begin renovation. One year later, I once again find myself restless with the need for a DIY project, the desire to trade my sweat for a small transformation consuming my thoughts. I need methodical tasks to relax, these days. I need the before and after of dirty wood and crisp paint.

Grief is heavy on my mind, confusingly muddled with gratitude and hope.

I wish that I could throw myself into work today, that my mind would engage and rise to challenge of building my professional development plan.

What is your vision for the next two years? The next year? the worksheet asks. What tangible action items can we put on your agenda for the next six weeks?

I don’t know.

I write, “Improve my agility with sales forecasting tools.”

That’s the right answer, but the real answer is learn to breathe air rarified with grief without stopping to catch my breath.

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ransacked

Hi friends and family!  Remember me?  😉  Things have been mental here recently because my friend’s home was broken into and ransacked.  The thieves took everything of value from her, including some material that is so irreplaceable and sensitive I can’t even blog about it here. 😦 It affects many people. It affects her livelihood.  They took the both the tools and the fruit of her labor.

Basically, this totally sucks…

If you’re wondering what to do if you get burglarized, what I’ve learned is that you can’t roll over.  The cops will be unhelpful at first and everyone will express a general air of “there’s really nothing we can do…”, but the truth is, there are things people can do. Be a tigress and others will join you.  

All week I’ve helped my friend cooperate with cops (we got a detective to come and helped him figure out what to fingerprint), tell her story to neighbors and the media (because more watchful eyes = better chance of catching them), work out what to do with affected clients, and scour Craigslist/pawn shops/used electronics stores/eBay for any sign of her stolen goods.  In addition to this she bravely posted local flyers, searched dumpsters and other wooded areas nearby where the burglars may have hidden stuff for later retrieval, and registered the serial numbers of her items online and in the police database.  You would not believe how courageous she’s been, even though she now has to move and life is nuts.

I cannot wait for the Relief Party we have when we find her stolen electronics…

In the meantime, wish us luck.  Hindsight is always 20/20 but I’m encouraging her not to not to look back, as it’s far too easy to blame oneself because of less-than-stellar security measures. The way I look at it, blaming yourself for getting broken into because you didn’t shut your shades each day to hide your valuables / buy a fancy security system / whatever is like blaming a woman for getting raped because she walked outside at night in scandalous clothing. Should the woman have been more cautious? Yes, but she didn’t deserve to get raped. In my friend’s case we all underestimated the risk, but that doesn’t mean we were asking for the door to get kicked in.

Anyway. I’m glad she’s safe and will continue to support her as much as possible, hopefully in increasingly fun ways. Soon I will post some recipes and photos from fun events! 🙂